A night out? What's that?

Hi everyone! It is Monday night, 12:38am, so if I misspell... anything, please forgive me. My husband and I have just spent the last two nights at the Bruce Springsteen concerts. This was our first real "adult" night out in a while. If you have kids with disabilities, you somehow seem to find yourself focusing so much on the kids, that you forget about yourself! It really felt good to dress nice and "get out there!" Of course, the only downside is leaving the kids behind. Thus, brings me to my "topic" -o- the evening. My son zach has been having seperation problems with me lately. Not when he goes to school, but when I leave the house. I went to my mothers publishing party the other night and left the boys at my in-laws, my husband got off of work a little later. I recieved a call at 7pm to let me know that Zach had locked himself in the bathroom. My first thought was- "Hell, the three of you have a combined age of 170 years, and a four year old is beating you?" ( wow- my inlaws and husband sure sound old- 170?) Anyways... I told them to unlock the door and take him out! He then decided to throw up all over my inlaws house, so... at 8pm I had to leave my mothers party. Ya know, I would not have a problem if it happened just once, but three times now I have had to come home early because Zach was having a mommy-missing fit! Jay could have bought him a pony and I still think he would have cried for me. Why is that? When do they get past that, or , is it our fault because we are too close to them because of their special needs? Do I ever get a small part of my adult life back? Don't get me wrong- besides my husband, my kids are the best thing that ever happened to me! I love them so much, maybe a little too much. Is it wrong to feel like I need a break once in a while, or is that selfish? I have spoken to many people to get advise on seperation, and maybe someone out there is going through this same problem. What happens in their little minds that decides "change is not good"? I just don't know, but I do know that every mom needs to get away for a while to refuel! As Jenny McCarthy said on Oprah: "We need babysitters... please offer to babysit for a child with special needs- and not for just an hour-we need a night!" I have never been a fan of her's, but all you mom's out there... heed her advise and let's take a mom's nigt out to better ourselves. Have that drink that you have been waiting 4 years for, or catch up on a Spiderman movie (have not seen any of them) or just go somewhere and lay down! I find a park bench works just as good as a hotel- if it is less than 1 hour, and you put away your valuables! In conclusion, and not a second too soon... let the kids cry and if you are living with a special needs child... "you go girl!"